"I know we could both go on with our lives and we'd both be fine, but I've seen what we could be like together. And I choose us."
July 9: Your biggest challenge of motherhood: how things were when baby was first born, how things changed as time went on and what type of challenges are you facing right now?
I've kind of talked about the struggles I've had before and hopefully you won't mind me talking about some of them again. At first one of the hugest challenges for me was getting used to a new routine. One minute you go from being able to sleep all night and maybe even sleeping in a little in the morning to interrupted sleep all night long. I had read how often you have to wake up through the night but to experience it first hand was rough. I was exhausted everday for at least the first 3 months, and how I managed everything I don't even have a clue. But let me tell you when they finally slept through the night I was in heaven because seriously when was the last time you were able to sleep a whole 7 hours straight.
But the biggest struggle was my hormones, they were so out of whack that I was driving myself crazy. And then you top off bringing a new born baby home for the first time and whoa you better watch out. I was seriously overwhelmed when I brought Sweet Pea home. David helped but really had no experience with kids and definetly not with babies. So I often felt that I was expected to know exactly what to do, and I also felt that I was constantly being criticized on how I was raising her.
As of now I have more confidence in my parenting ablilites, and things were easier the second time around. Yes there were some adjustments to make but overall a lot easier. And yet now I'm facing a whole new set of issues, for example Sweet Pea discovering real independence served with a little attitude on the side. She is definetly my drama queen but man can it be exhausting. My Monkey, however, is for the most part very easy going but when he wants he can be the most stubborn person I know. It doesn't matter how many time I tell him "no" he still insists on getting into things and then laughs when I get on to him.
But overall I wouldn't change any of the experiences I've had with my children because they have made my life and absoulute joy and very interesting. So for any of you who have read this let me know about some of struggles then and now. Have a great day!